I was hiding behind my studies, off getting my degree in Michigan. Living my life to the fullest, drinking Thursday - Saturday and not eating the best foods either. Don't get me wrong, I love my time in Graduate School but I was really running away from issues back at home. Issues I had with myself internally, issues with my body image and much more.
However, to everyone else around me, friends and family had no clue I was unhappy. I was the happy go lucky person, always on the go, involved in everything and loving life. But that September day when I decided to take control of my life, there was much more hidden then the fat, the large portions that I had to leave behind. There were issues I had never thought about, body image issues that I had never discussed with anyone other than myself internally. And I made that effort to make a CHANGE. By the beginning of the new year, I had already shed 30lbs.
Starting 2008 on a good note and never wanted to go back.
That year was hard, I faced some ups and downs, with my weight, my personal identity and learning how to "love". To love both myself and another individual. I had to learn how to be happy with myself and accept myself in order to allow someone else into my life. During that year I lost an additional 20lbs..the hardest 20lbs ever but worth every single pound. I became comfortable in my skin, maybe too comfy in most cases.
I went from a size 18/20 to 14/16...XL to L/M...having a waist line that was amazing. Trust me I loved it...I also loved the attention I was receiving.
But that was something I had to get use too over time....more lessons to learn...
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